Nice guys still exist

It's frustrating when you try to get someone off your mind and they just keep coming back. It's the stupid stuff, like my car is in the shop and they came back with stuff wrong with it. My impulse was to pick up my phone and tell him about it. Nope, can't do that. It's the little things that sting, like putting hydrogen peroxide on a cut. It hurts for a bit, but then it goes away... until you scrape it on something else and need to clean it again. It's a circular thing.

It is nice to know that nice guys still exist though. He did give me hope that there are some decent guys out there. I'm still pretty darn convinced they are few and far between. I need to get over this guy before I even think about finding anyone else. It's nice to know though. It provides just a sliver of hope, much like a sun's ray through the rain and clouds. In a world where people can't bother to hold doors for each other anymore it's nice to know good people are still out there. It's just a matter of finding them. It dawned on me today that this breakup has been the first guy who hasn't cheated on me since... well, gosh... lets just leave it at a long time. I had this crazy perfect idea in my head of us at one of C's baseball games on a gorgeous fall morning with the air crisp and hot chocolate in our hands... I don't know why, but it just seemed like the perfect equation for me. Simple and pure. I guess it just wasn't the right time or place for that. I'll tuck that one back into my "dream guy" file.

I saw a quote a few days ago that seems to be perfect for me right now... of course now I can't find it, something about being a tired emotional mess... true story folks. I am definitely a tired, on the verge of exhausted which definitely puts me on the hot emotional mess scale. I'm not sure if my body is tired or my soul is tired... or both! Whew... it's exhausting!