2019...
This morning I sat down at the computer to write a blog welcoming in 2019. I drafted it, reread it and set it down. I'm already in a bit of a funk, I dropped C off at his father's house last night for the week. While it was completely ridiculous to have him with me for the week at work, I miss him like crazy. This morning I felt that it was New Years and I wanted to be one of those girls who had an amazing person to kiss at midnight. I spent the day feeling sorry for myself and having a cruddy outlook on the last day of 2018. I dropped a friend off at the airport this evening and headed home. It is getting cold and potentially icy, plus I just don't like being on the road for NYE. As I drove home I talked to my mom and a good friend. My attitude adjusted a bit. As I pulled up closer to my house my attitude faded. I ran into Safeway and grabbed a few things for myself this evening and as I walked into the house I realized, I don't really have it as bad as my attitude was thinking all day.
My self destructive attitude turned into thankful. I have a great job, I have a wonderful family, a truly amazing son... 2018 beat me down, but it didn't defeat me. It was full of divorce, fighting and grieving. I'm not going to lie, it's been a rough year BUT I made it through intact, stronger and more stubborn than ever. That in itself is enough to be thankful for. I've made new friends, who I have come to absolutely adore and strengthened friendships with others. Some friends have been lost, but those are the friends who make their own choice. I've learned friendships work two ways and those who have wanted to stuck around have. I'm cool with that and have let the others go.
I've learned that good guys do exist - from friends and from a handful of dates. I haven't found the best guy for me, heck at this rate I might never. Somehow I've managed to not give up home yet.., the key word there is yet. Hopefully 2019 will be a little kinder to my heart. Sometimes I am not sure how much more breaking it can handle.
With all of those thoughts... I wish you a happy new year my friends. I truly hope that 2019 exceeds any expectations you could possibly imagine. I appreciate each and everyone of you and everything you bring into my life. I appreciate your support for both C and I.
Happy 2019
My self destructive attitude turned into thankful. I have a great job, I have a wonderful family, a truly amazing son... 2018 beat me down, but it didn't defeat me. It was full of divorce, fighting and grieving. I'm not going to lie, it's been a rough year BUT I made it through intact, stronger and more stubborn than ever. That in itself is enough to be thankful for. I've made new friends, who I have come to absolutely adore and strengthened friendships with others. Some friends have been lost, but those are the friends who make their own choice. I've learned friendships work two ways and those who have wanted to stuck around have. I'm cool with that and have let the others go.
I've learned that good guys do exist - from friends and from a handful of dates. I haven't found the best guy for me, heck at this rate I might never. Somehow I've managed to not give up home yet.., the key word there is yet. Hopefully 2019 will be a little kinder to my heart. Sometimes I am not sure how much more breaking it can handle.
With all of those thoughts... I wish you a happy new year my friends. I truly hope that 2019 exceeds any expectations you could possibly imagine. I appreciate each and everyone of you and everything you bring into my life. I appreciate your support for both C and I.
Happy 2019
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